Confidence

Confidence

I chose the topic of confidence for one simple reason: to further understand it and develop my skills in many areas of my life that involve confidence. I have had heavy depression and anxiety for many years, and one skill that I feel I always lack is confidence. I believe that if I work hard to get better, I will be more confident and happier. Confidence also interests me because it is a proven key to being successful in life. I am motivated to work hard and face challenges in my life, and I believe that I must learn to be confident. By becoming confident, I will hopefully be able to break the cumbersome chains of anxiety and depression. Instead of these chains ruling my life and controlling me, I could through confidence, control my own life. Continually writing about confidence and analyzing my own thoughts is an excellent strategy to further understand the subject. I have seen many dark times in my mind that I'm not proud of. Often I don't realize my negative thoughts that usually come second nature, causing me to fall deeper into a pit. Sometimes I feel so hopeless and defeated in life, and socially I feel inadequate as if I am on a whole different level than my peers. I go through each day faking smiles and pretending that everything is alright, while on the inside my mind feels totally defeated and void of happiness. I feel as if I have fallen behind in life, with little hope. With confidence can come hope though. Although not all of this are contributed to a lack of confidence, I'm damn sure having more confidence couldn't hurt. Confidence is just part of the puzzle to getting better. However, I must make sure this puzzle piece is shaped properly or the whole puzzle will not work. Through gaining confidence, I could gain strength to start to free myself from my chains. If I imagine myself happy, with less depression and anxiety, I imagine myself being confident. And that is why I'm interested in confidence. I know the path to getting better will be a rough one, but I feel prepared to face what lies ahead because I am sick and tired of staying where I am in this cage of depression. Do I know how to immediately become more confident? No. Like all good things, I am expecting that I have to work hard for it. Overall, I am excited to learn more about how I can gain more confidence and also how it will affect my life. I want to improve my life and I think confidence may help me do just that.